CHANGE IS NOT ALWAYS BAD

Hello fellow blog readers,

If your reading this you are more than likely checking in with my life of goodness. This blog has really been a way for me to share with everyone what God is doing in my life. Recently, well it’s had a lot of change.

As we all know change isn’t always bad, but many times it isn’t easy. Sometimes though change can be the best thing for us.

So, what’s been going on in my life and what has God been doing?

At the beginning of this year I realized I had a lot of walls built up in my heart. Wall’s I put up thinking they would protect me from being hurt. Walls created from all my losses of change these past 5 years. But the more I sought truth I realized walls pulled me farther from God’s truth, grace, and love. So, I began to pray for God to break the walls of my heart. The more I prayed the more I saw God answering my prayer and softening my heart. As I began to heal I noticed people around me with walls of their own. So, I prayed for those around me; for God to humble them and break their own walls. God began to work and to break down walls I never knew I had. The prayer for healing in my heart and those around me became evident as God has been showing us walls we never knew we had. Walls created out of a lack of trust in God.

Through God’s goodness I have seen great change this year so far. But as change so happens it’s not always easy.

 I struggled in February and March as I started to feel really sick again. My stomach always hurt, migraines were worse, food became hard to eat and I started to feel discouraged. I was confused because I wanted God to break the walls of my heart but I did not want to get sick again. Gods ways are so different than our own. Finally, in the middle of March I went to the doctor feeling the sickest I’ve felt in a long time. They did many tests and found out my gallbladder had an infection and needed to be removed. I had surgery at the end of March. A few weeks after surgery I found I felt better than I had before I got sick 5 years ago. I praise God for healing me in such a way.  This does not mean I’m healed from sickness. I still have some health issues that are serious but I am doing much better! Praise God for He is good! As you can see, change isn’t always bad.

April was a sad month. My Grandma and Grandpa (on my mom’s side) both died a day apart from each other. My Grandma expectedly and my Grandpa unexpectedly. Our family had a hard time with loss this month. Saying goodbye to loved ones is never easy. These grandparents were some of my biggest cheerleaders in life. I remember the last time I saw my Grandma (in January of this year). Holding her hand and telling her of a blind date I had just been on and what a fun time it was. My Grandma was never one for many words and she simply held my hand tight as I talked and even when I got done she simply kept holding my hand. It’s as if she needed no words. She loved me and wanted the best for me. As for my Grandpa, he was always one for words of encouragement wanting the best for each one in his family. Grandpa had called me a few days after my gallbladder surgery wanting to know how “little Katie” (as he always called me) was doing. His words of encouragement and hope for me to be on the mend were filled with love and hope for a better future for me, his youngest grandchild. My Grandpa always felt so bad my life had dealt with so many losses but he never stopped cheering for me. I will miss my grandparents and am thankful God gave me them to be my personal cheer leaders. This month, change was hard.

May was a good sort of change. I went on a blind date right before Christmas with a guy my parents’ friends set me up on. I was very unsure about it, but trusted God and our friends. So, I went on a blind date with this guy named Bradie. As it turned out Bradie loves the Lord, likes the outdoors and hunting, and is a very kind man. We hit it off and went on a few more dates at the beginning of the new year. Now let me just tell you Bradie is very patient. Before I even met Bradie I had prayed that if I was going to start dating again that the guy I dated would be patient, kind and understanding. Bradie was all of those things as well as handsome, enjoyed nature, and had a good heart for the Lord. Around the middle of May we talked about dating and became “official.” Dating Bradie has been a blessing in so many ways. I never thought I’d date again. I never thought I’d enjoy dating again. I never thought I’d meet a guy that'd be so understanding of my life. I enjoy dating, those giddy feelings of having someone like you and you like them back and I enjoy spending time with Bradie. This whole dating thing is really fun and I give God all the glory. 😊 The month of May was full of really good changes.

As you can see changes are not always bad but they can be hard. God has worked a lot in my life. Life if about loving God and loving his people. Changes are all a part of life. I still to this day would not change anything that God has done in my life. I am blessed and God is very good!

In your life of changes dear friend, I hope you find comfort in God’s goodness, blessings on the days that are hard, and joy throughout your life. Much love to you all!

p.s. I had planned on posting this in June but the summer time fun got the best of me.