Every morning I wake up and say, “Hey God, what am I going
to do today?”
That may seem like a silly greeting to you, yet it has given
me hope for each new day.
My ability to do the things I do each day always comes from
God.
I never know how I’m going to feel in the morning. It can
depend on a lot of things. What I ate the day before, how I slept, what
activities I did the day before, how run down my body is and so forth.
So, I wake up with my mind set out to do what I can to honor
God with the life he has given me.
It is a given that I am usually sick when it’s colder
outside and “healthier” when warmer. I like to think June thru August is my
vacation time. It’s when I’m able to do more, spend less time laying in bed,
visiting friends more, and working my usual work hours without canceling or
getting someone else to cover my shift. I find blessing in my vacation time with
a healthier body.
Some days I really struggle. (You may have those days too.)
The days I have been stuck in bed fighting infections for longer than a week.
The days trying to decide if I should go to church or stay home and rest. The
days I call in sick to work and have my coworkers cover yet another shift. The
days where friends email or text and it takes me weeks to respond. The days
where I struggle reading my bible as I lay in bed discouraged. (We all have
those days.)
Today marks a month and a half of being sick. Thankfully I
feel like I am starting to be on the mend. Out of those 45 days I have maybe
done a few of the 45 things marked in my planner but not many. I have spent the
rest of my time in bed with ear infections, vertigo, achy flu, stomach flu,
cold and sinus infections. This does not even include my chronic illnesses of
fibromyalgia and migraines.
You see, my disease doesn’t always show outwardly. I usually
am smiling if a person sees me outside my house and so they then think I’m fine.
Although that is not true it’s a reasonable assumption. I even told my mom
today that maybe God’s not ready to have me get married yet because I may get
sick and miss my own wedding. Haha. If God has a husband in store for me I hope
he’s preparing him. 😉
When I get sick for days it makes me think about my
priorities in life.
I thank God every day for my life and know that God is in
total control. He’s in control of my health, sickness, and even knows when my
Heaven home going will be. Honestly, can’t we all just admit that going to
Heaven is our goal or should be our goal.
What we do with our life right now matters.
So yes, I admit I don’t
like feeling sick and sometimes I can get really discouraged wondering how many
other things I am going to have to cancel this week for my health. But I know
my attitude matters. I can grumble or find blessings in my weakness.
As the Apostle Paul said, I will rejoice all the more in my
trails for “when I am weak He is strong.” I want to live my life and honor God.
I want to have a story worth sharing.
I want to be different. I’ve always wanted to be different.
Maybe God’s plan for me was a disease that has its ups and downs to show my
attitude of faith. I wouldn’t have chosen this life for myself but I would not
want to change it now.
This life that I’ve been given I want to live to the
fullest. This life I have is a blessing.
Blessings to all who read.
God is good!
