WANDER IN WONDER

I thought it was about time I shared one of my spoken words with you. I don't have a video of myself, so you will have to make do just reading my poem. Enjoy and keep on striving after the King!

Wander in Wonder

My thoughts have overtaken me, 

I begin to wonder. 

I wander in my wonder.

I even ponder in my plundered mind.

The thoughts keep rolling, the emotions are overpowering.

Some days I sit and think, and then I cry.

I cry because I remember the good times of the past, 

I cry because I live life in physical pain, 

I cry because I am humbled.

This is my life now and it's ok.

I remember a time when life was "good," 

I would run around, do anything I wanted, and explore the world,

Happy to do anything I could.

A time came when reality checked in my life,

Then came the four letter word, LOSS.

Losses came into my life like tumbleweed, it rolled around and around whichever way it pleased.

At first I didn't think I had asked for it, but honestly, I did!

And on the hardest of days of loss, I asked the Lord to take it away.

But He said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness."

Humbled again and again I would come to the cross, thankful for my losses because I knew,

This was making me striving after the King!

So, I ponder, I ponder in my plundered emotions that are so overpowering,

I wander in my wonder too.

I ask the Lord so many questions, questions that only He can give an answer too.

Every day I sit in awe of God...wondering, pondering, thinking, wanting to know more of God.

I tear up wondering, "Will the pain ever go away?"

Then I ponder, "If the pain went away, would I be as hungry for God as I am?"

I then think, "I really don't have an answer, but I am content with where God has me."

Because as I wonder in my wander,

And I ponder in my pondered mind, 

I think, "I am loved, I have the joy of the Lord, and He is my strength!"